HAH! I DID IT!!! I managed to do what I thought I'd never be able to do my whole life. I played my solos in front of at least 3 other bands(TKGS main band + sec ones i think, St nicks and Fairfield). And there were like, 80 people in each band. and 80 times 4 is a grand total of 320 PEOPLE!!!Let me spell that out for you. Three hundred and twenty. Three hundred and twenty. OOOH! I could say that a thousand times and not get sick of saying it. Three hundred and twenty. Not including teachers and other adults around. Three hundred and friggin twenty.

Yes, I was shaking like I had fits the first time round. But that didn't affect my sound. Everybody said I sounded normal. Charmaine didn't even notice that I was shaking. That's good news. Meaning most of the other people in the other bands didn't either. The second time round I was shaking just a little. I'm so proud of myself!! Seriously, you have NO idea how much this solo thing is bugging me.

I mean, just the night before I dreamt that I had gone to see a therapist and he gave me these anti-depressants. And on the label it said: reduces anxiety. HAH! I honestl think I need them.I was like asking the doctor if it could last me up till April(cause that's when SYF takes place). See, it's affecting me so badly I have nightmares about it. But I think I can make it. I CAN play. Just not in front of a crowd. I mean, a crowd that's more than Three hundred and twenty.
Heh!My new lucky number.

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