I'm am totally, completely and absolutely disgusted with myself. Seriously, what the freak is wrong with me!!! It's only a bloody solo. A bloody less-than-20-mothersneezing-second solo. So why the hell am I making such a big deal out of it?!?! I was shaking like nobody's business, my hair was all over the place, and worst of all, I WAS OFFBEAT. I mean, for pete's sake, I've been playing the damn part for more than FIVE MONTHS now. Things like playing offbeat,out of tune or sqeaking are totally inexscusable.
I absolutely despise stupid people who do stupid things. Now I've become one of them.ARGH. I ought to be shot. I am on the verge of swearing. And that is seriously a bad sign because I HATE swearing. It's just so uncivilised and low class. Proffesional snobs just don't DO swearing, know what I mean? Nevermind. I digress.
Like, I was SAYING....oh forget it. I have happier things to talk about. Like after that disgusting incident, I went out with Sherilyn Ng, Emily and Pei ting to pastamania. And then we went to that place, where I finally bought The Book. Yes, THE BOOK! The most brilliant, fantastic book ever known to mankind(or at least in my opinion) is in MY hands. And I am currently staring at the three most beautiful words in the world, with the five most beautiful faces in the world right under it.
I'm listening to Katherine Mcphee's Over it. Such a nice song. Reminds me of MIKEY everytime I hear it. Don't know why. How do you get over someone you don't even know. What's there to get over anyway? MIKEY!!! I LOVE YOOUUUU!!!!
Oh. That.
Speaking of Mikey, people, that day all I did was stare at his picture for five minutes and you guys came back from chinese and were like "are you okay?" Can't you let a girl drool over a hottie in peace?!?! I was just staring at his pic while wishing I had fangs. Er..nevermind. Shall not elaborate on that point.
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Omigosh people! I LOVE MY SECTION TO BITS AND PIECES!!!! Thank you guys SO MUCH for the presents. They're absolutely brilliant. And best of all THEY'RE BLACK. A nice, cheerful BLACK! The bag, and the t-shirt and the wristband and the pencilcase. Thanks sherilyns! The brownies(actually I don't know what exactly they are) are DELICIOUS!!! You spent 7 hrs o something doing them right?You're the best sherilyns in the sherilyn-y world of sherilyns!!! WAHAHAHA! They haven't killed me yet. I think they might actually help me gain weight.WOOHOO! Thanks to the horrible black hotdog and sandra for the pencilcase and thanks to cat and yingying for the prezzie!!!! So touched. :D

The only part of my birthday that was bad was that this was the tutor's last practice with us. Oh the TRAGEDY! Oh the SORROW! IT'S UNBEARABLE. He was the only tutor that paid enough attention to me. =pEach prac he'd be like "e flat,perfect" or "e flat, very good" and stuff like that, and he gave useful advice. Shang Yu said the only reason he's paying me so much attention is because he's a e flat-ter himself(ooh. i like that word) Cool. Then maybe he's biased TOWARDS me. I wish. So when he walked out of the band room for the very last time, I WAS ON THE VERGE OF TEARRSSSSS!!! Gawd! I'm becoming such a friggin girl. Spoilt my mood for the rest of the band prac. Mr ong didn't make it any better by extending our band prac by almost an hour. I WANT MY TUTOR BACK!!!! He was honestly very good. Shang Yu thinks I'm desperate. WHATEVER LAR WOMAN!! I just like him. The end. WAAAAHHHHH! Shall go hug meow for consolation.
lifeonthemurderscene6:17 PM

OH MY GAWD!!! Everytime I see or listen to MCR, I fall head over heels in love with them all over again. This time is no different. I just watched the I Don't Love You video. MY GEE'S HAIR IS BLACK AGAIN!!! Heehee. Because he knows I love it that way. Okay. I shall keep on dreaming. Anyways, he was singing in his usual deliciously demented way. I absolutely LOVE the way he sings. It reflects the demented soul in me perfectly. And FRANKIE!! I love it when he flings his guitar. AND HE DID JUST THAT IN THIS VID TOOOO!!!! *squeals* And he looked so pretty. Pixie thinks he's pretty too :D MIKEY. OMG WHERE DO I START WITH MIKEY. He is undeniably the hottest thing ever right now. He looked DIVINE in that vid. His hair was kinda spiked up and stuff and...ARGH*drooling in progress* So jealous of alice simmons.

GRANDPA!!! I have a confession to make!!! I miss you quite terribly. WAAAHHH!!! No more singing MCR songs. No more wacking you on the head with a rolled up piece of paper. (Actually, pixie's kinda fun to wack too!) We never got a chance to make adjustments to our TanJin law. No more arg-ing about mummy. And no more fighting over who Mikey belongs to.(And for the 1000000th time, he's still mine)

On the OTHER hand, no more inferiority complex. I used to feel like such an idiot sitting next to you. Now with pixie i'm like:
did you just understand what she just said?!
Pixie:No.
Me: GREAT!!! ME NEITHER!!!
WAHAHAH! It feels SO GOOD to have someone to share my dumbness with. Pixie, Luv u :D And I thought i wouldn't be able to physically abuse my new partner but I was wrong. She's wackable too!!! She started it okay!
Couldn't ask fo a better partner.
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Band on wednesday was pretty interesting. I came to for band after bio class and found out that we were playing Yiddish for Speech Day. So I'm gonna have to play my solo in front of a gazillion people I know this time. That's 10 times worse. God, help me. Anyways, Swee Jin was conducting us, and she was in a funny mood that day. Like the second time we played, Mrs Tan and Mr Ong were like trying to get us to play in a more lively way, so Swee Jin also was conducting all lively and stuff. Like she was bouncing up and down with her ponytail bobbing up and down and stuff. Her face was really red. She kinda made me think of a great Bouncy Tomato.
And it just so happened that that thought entered my head right before my solo part. So when I was lpaying my solo I was looking at The Bouncy Red Tomato and was trying my hardest not to burst out laughing. Do you have any idea how embarassing it would have been if I had?!! So when I played the freaking solo I squeaked from the effort of trying not to laugh at The Bouncy Red Tomato. But after she heard me squeak, The Bouncy Red Tomato turned her Bouncy Red head and gave me a WHATTHESNEEZE??!?!! look. Which made iteven harder for me, producing yet another lovely squeak. Brilliant. And Si wei told me that when I was squeaking Mrs Tan was grinning. I don't know if it was because of my squeaks, or if she found my struggling to control myself funny, but she was apparently amused. Geeee. Stupid Tomato's fault.
Then we had like 10 minutes tutoring with this jap dude and dudette. When they saw that my E flat clarinet was an RC Prestige they were all WHOOOAAAA!!!! and fussing over it. The dude was like "very expensive!!" in his jap accent. Like dude! I know. $6000 isn't a small sum. Hoho. But my B flat clar isn't very cheap either. I think it's $4000 or something. WAHAHA! So cool.
When we went back to the band room, I got the hiccups. So when we were like falling out, the whole band was quiet then suddenly *HIC*. GAWD!!! It was so embarassing. Sam and marcia burst out laughing and one of the leaders was like "stop laughing". ARGH!! Terrible.
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We had chem spa yesterday. Ms. chng was our examiner/invigilator/whtever. She's damn cute dude! She thought the prac ended at 1.45, so she let us off early. Then ms. begum came and told her that it actually ended at 2, so ms chng gave us 10 extra minutes. Hehee. And I didn't know wht to do during those 10 minutes cause i had finished everything so i started tossing my eraser round. It eventually grew tired of being thrown around and decided to throw itself on the floor. It rolled and rolled and styed there, like a bloody meter away from me. I stared at it with a WTH?!!! look and looked up only to realise that ms chng had been watching the whole "show". Eek. Then I looked and my graph and realised i didn't like certain parts of the curve and wnted to change it. Didn't dare ask ms chng if i could pick the friggin eraser up. Hohoho. So whe she went to the next room I immediately dashed to it and grabbed it. DMT #2 LAUGHED at me. urgh. Piggies.

Titoudao on tues was pretty good. I mean, i admit i was bored t parts, but other parts were either really hilarious or just...well captivating for lack of a better word. And ALL of them are BRILLIANT actors. Seriously. At some prts i was actually convinced that the whole thing was real. Very, VERY good acting. I guess those actors just needed a real stage and a real chance to showcase their talents. Those boring comedy series thingos on chnnel five don't do them enough justice.
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Yeesh. Nothing much happened this week. Except that I slept during bio remedial and si wei had to keep nudging me awake to take down notes. Hehee! Tahnks si wei. But it was kinda sad cause I was dreaming about STEVEN GERRARD!!! hohoho. Yes, I think he's cute. And yesterday during SS, grandpa giggled a "girly" giggle. I was so fascinated. 0_0 She's hardly ever girly. And Shang Yu, nearly puked after eating the choc cake we had during SEL cause it was so rich. Grandpa stuffed her chubby face with TWO slices cause the cake was nice.Thanks mr sng. =) Hohoho again. And yup. That would be it.
Oh yeah, my tuition teacher noticed I was kinda depressed during tuition. So I told her about the solo thing. Honestly. You want me to play my solo in front of RAFFLES and River valley high?! WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU PEOPLE THINKING WHEN YOU SIGNED US UP?!?!?!!! And yesterday I told grandpa that I couldn't afford to study cause there was so much tv to watch and too little time. Oh dear. I need to get my priorities straight.
lifeonthemurderscene11:22 AM

I figured out something. I'm one of the LEAST popular in the class. And the section. Oh forget the section, how about the whole goddamn band. Am I that unlikable? Being emo is a goddamn curse. I just DON'T KNOW how to communicate with people. The whole anti-social thing didn't really bother me at first but now...This just sucks man. I don't know why I'm blogging about it. So dumb.
And YOU!! Can you STOP bothering me. You're irritating.Probably the most boring guy on the planet. I hate boring people. Even your blog bores me to death. It's like someone writing a journal they have to hand up to the teacher the next day. Goody-effin-two shoes. I appreciate your words of advice, I know you mean well,thanks, but next time, tell it to someone who gives a damn. Give up MCR. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!! Shut up.
lifeonthemurderscene4:54 PM

Okay, actually its that weirdo with five colours in her hair( you know, the song from mcfly), but the wonderful miss lavinge only has PINK highlights in her hair, so I thought this titile is more apt. Nevermind shall talk about her later. But first, MAN U VS LIVERPOOL!!!!Guess what? WE WON!!! I went to gloria's house to watch the WHOLE match LIVE. Okay, fine. I slept at around the 75th min. But it was like almost 11 okay!!I usually knock out at 10. hehee. Honestly, nothing, not even prison break can stop me from sleeping sometimes. Cause it's my second favourite hobby. So no difference here. I think liverpool scored in the first half but it was like, an offside or something. I don't know. Too busy watching the assistant referee hopping around like a toad. =p
Then my favourite player got an injury in the 70th++ minute and got substituted....it was all in ROO-INS. hehx. (Yes, I watch first edition. It's the only ESPN show they show on channel 5) I was so fascinated by the blood on his leg. And apparently the winning goal was scored after I dozed off and nobody had the DECENCY to wake me up and tell me. sheesh.

Anyway, on to the great avril lavigne. She sucks. No seriously. I watched her latest video Girlfriend. There was one reviewer who aptly described it as a cross between hannah montanah and gwen stefani. Not that I have anything against gwen stefani. Just avril lavigne trying to RAP like gwen stefani. Like GAWD! I know people change, but not THAT much!! It was like, she was the only sensible, decently dressed female with talent and she decided to chuck it all aside in exchange for a pair of mini-shorts, pink highlights in her hair and FISH NET STOCKINGS!! You know, i never thought i'd ever be able to put Avril lavigne and fish net stockings in one sentence, but there you go. She has joined the dark side. Like we didn't have enough sluts prancing around on tv half-naked already. GAWD! And I've seen her like going out with cleavage bearing, revealing dresses and stuff. GHASTLY!

But the song itself is bearable. Once you get over her annoying bratty voice, immature lyrics, and try imagining someone else singing the song, that is. I mean, I knew she turned girly but not Hilary duff girly! That's like, so yesterday. Haiz.. the only decent female left is Amy Lee.

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